(because I'm tired)
Or is it overwhelmed?
- The house is an ongoing challenge (this morning we had to empty the room we dump things in and feed the animals – that stuff’s got to go somewhere! – and then decide on where to put the washer and dryer. And do we want a sink? And what work surfaces? I know YOU would have already decided this stuff but it completely caught me by surprise that this was happening today!)
- I’ve got a load to do for Box Happy – I’m really pleased with what we have so far for the Feb Box (which is all about self-care and being your own Valentine – what I need a bit of too) but there’s still so much to do and just NO TIME!! Because…
- I have a newborn – it’s the broken sleep that does it!
Sleepy = grumpy
A few weeks ago Nancy was sleeping for a 6-7 hour stretch in the night, which meant I was getting that good quality sleep you need to feel human (I know lucky bugger). Now she’s going for a maximum of 2-3 hours and I can really feel the difference. I’m hoping it’s because she’s been poorly and not a sign of things to come. I’m the kind of person who needs a lot of sleep or the wheels fall off the whole operation. As is becoming obvious this week. So the thought of this being an ongoing thing is resulting in tears.
I’m in this constant limbo of trying to follow a routine because there is this hope that with a routine they’ll sleep through sooner… (I loosely followed Tizzy Hall’s Save Our Sleep with Reuben because I liked knowing what I was meant to be doing – so Ive been using that again) only for Nancy to completely do her own thing. I try to wake her at 7 for a feed but she’ll snack then sleep until 8/8:30, which is when I’m meant to put her down for her morning nap…
Looking after myself
I’m feeling pretty down on myself for not being back in my old jeans. Actually I am back in one pair but they’re bloody tight! I feel stupid for even saying it because I’m so proud of what my body’s done and been through. It’s the weight I’ve put on since having Nancy that’s the issue. Tiredness and busyness is resulting in poor eating choices. Plus I got on the scales…and a week after eating healthy vegetables (aka ones that haven’t been covered in butter or gravy) and not eating every hour, I didn’t lose a single pound. This worries me as I’ve 2 and half stone to lose. So, I feel like I’ve got quite a mountain to climb.
This quote we shared on the Box Happy social pages yesterday is perfect for me to remember right now. Again, I will get there and I don’t want to waste this precious time feeling bad about myself!
I need to be sure I make some better choices and that no doubt comes down to not having to make choices at all. Meal planning and prepping when I’m not tired for example. Of course you’re going to grab a pizza if you’re hungry and knackered! We’re all human. But if you have something healthy and ready to go in the fridge, then you’re making life a lot easier for you and your extra love handles.
So that’s where I am right now! I’d love to hear any advice you have re routines and sleep deprivation and also meal prepping and self-care/love in these early days. Because they are still early days. I need to remember that! Come and join the conversation on the Mums’ Days Facebook Page or over on Instagram where I’ve been sharing a lot more stories since the NY 🙂
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