It has been such an in an incredible few weeks filled with joy and euphoria at the arrival of our little bit but while we have been lucky enough to experience this there has been so much sadness going on for people who are close to us. So while I’m struggling with nipple shields and sleepless nights, it puts everything in perspective about how blessed we are.

2 weekends ago Mike’s cousin and his partner lost their little boy during labour. I can’t think about it without crying. If any of you were reading my posts while I was pregnant, this was my greatest fear and for it to happen so close to home is gut rentching. My heart goes out to Mark and Erin, especially today at the funeral of their precious little boy.

And yesterday, my best friend in the world, Alex, lost her father. Tom was so precious to me and I’m absolutely devastated for Alex and her family but also for myself.

He was the kindest person you could meet and always had to be in on everything! Alex and I had a business together (which we closed at the beginning of the year) and Tom would drive me crazy – he’d call at least once a day, if not more, to ask Alex questions about things she couldn’t possibly answer over the phone (although she’d still try!!) about his computer, Skype, cameras, phones, the TV, the broadband and any other technology related things you can think of. It was of course incredibly comical but in my stress head ‘business’ days I didn’t think so. Not until we closed the business, then I really missed not hearing from him and the silly voices he would put on pretending to be someone else when you answered the phone (always in his think scottish accent) and getting stuck on the phone with him for ages when you were busy and only having voice messages from him! He brightened my day.

He also introduced me to ‘asking after you’ – he would say to Alex ‘tell Hannah I’m asking after her’. I found this weird…how can you ask after someone without actually asking after them!

When I say he had to be into everything, a recent example was on the morning Reuben was born Mike managed to send a few hurried texts to our parents and one to Alex to let them know he had arrived safely. Tom’s response was ‘can you text mike back and ask him to call me’! Alex advised him that he was probably a bit busy at the moment. He was also the only person at my wedding who managed to get a professional photo with just me and Mike!

He was a man who had seen his own tragedy with the death of his son last year and yet he could still bring happiness and light into people’s lives – the ultimate comedy character always making everyone laugh and say Oh! Dad!

I’m going to miss you Tom, rest in peace and tell my Grandma and Grandad I’m asking after them xxx