Today was our Ultrasound – finally! I was really nervous and convinced the midwife would find nothing in there. Firstly, she said that thing they always say on telly, ‘this is going to be really cold’ before putting on the lube (or whatever it is they use). It wasn’t especially cold. Secondly, almost as soon as she put the thing on my stomach the little baby showed up. It was clear as day and instantly performed by starting to move around (not sing). I don’t want to sound cheesey but it was the most amazing thing I’ve ever done.
The pictures are never as good as when you’re there, but in the top picture you can see its head and face top left and an arm sticking out, and in the bottom one you can its face on the right looking down and its spine and stuff.
As for the crying, I have been emotional! It started in the ultrasound as soon as the baby popped up on the screen. I couldn’t believe it was there. On the way out the nurse said to me ‘you might want to wipe your eye, you’ve had a little leak while you were looking at the baby’. A leak? I guess you do have to have a full bladder before you go in but it didn’t come out my eyes, that was tears combined with too much black eye-liner.
Then on my way in to meet Alex for brunch (what? We’re ladies of leisure at the moment), I got all over whelmed again and blubbed my way in to town. Then again on my way home.
Finally, as a treat tonight we paid to watch One Day, that film based on a book with Anne Hathaway doing an interesting Yorkshire come South African come generic English accent. (They should have got that house keeper from Frasier in to train her.) Well, I don’t want to give it away but there’s a sad bit at the end. I’m normally a film crier but not this time, hard as nails. Then the film stopped, I had a cuddle with Mike and that’s when the blubbing really started. I started thinking about how I didn’t want that thing in the film to happen to Mike and then it escalated to imagining all bad things that could happen. I was really sad and started to panic that I was going to be a worrier from now on, thinking only dark thoughts!
Turns out I’m alright now…
6 comments
Alex on 2-8-2012 at 11:30 pm
Christ it sounds like you’re turning into me! Don’t let the thoughts in – just start singing at the top of your lungs instead, it sort of works :0) I cried a bit about you’re little baby bean today too xxxxx
hannah on 2-9-2012 at 10:25 am
Ah, you softie
Do you have a song of choice?! – what happens if you start singing and it turns out to be ‘Love will tear us apart’ or something equally as sad…! xx
Ania on 2-9-2012 at 9:08 am
Marvellous news that it’s all ok and your little bab is a wriggler!! and nobody can describe the relief you feel when you see the first scan and find there actually IS a baby there!
Having kids has totally turned me into a blubbering mess too…all trough the pregnancy and since. The ending of One Day is something I now seem to think quite a lot about esp what it would mean for the kids :-/ …..I find a big bar of dairy milk helps with emotional moments
Lots of love xxx
hannah on 2-9-2012 at 10:32 am
Thanks for your comments darling xx I had a feeling blubbering was going to part of my future – I shall get a bar on stand by (although it’s sort of off limits after Mike gave me a telling off at the weekend: http://www.mumsdays.com/weight-gain-during-pregnancy/ !) xx
Kerry on 2-9-2012 at 8:11 pm
Wait until the 4th/5th day after giving birth – it’s non-stop crying from the minute you wake. Apparently, it’s to do with the dip in your hormones, nobody told me about it and as a (previous) non-crier it came as a big shock, and then the baby blues kicked in. Standing at the sink washing dishes and crying for no reason whatsoever, fortunately I’m passed that stage now and I’m at the ‘heart melts’ every time Lukas smiles or coos stage xx
hannah on 2-11-2012 at 6:30 pm
Eee, that doesn’t sound like fun Kerry – thank you for the heads up and glad you’ve come out the other side xxx